I’m feeling a little lost today. It’s been one week and two days since I lost my job and I still keep going over that meeting in my former bosses office with him telling me today was my last show. It came without warning. I’m outraged and beyond sad. I feel betrayed because I did not see this coming and I still don’t know why they decided to let me go. I have to come to terms with it because I will likely never know the real reason. But mixed in with all these feelings is one of “I will show you”. I’ve got plans.
I haven’t stopped thinking about them or working on them in the last 9 days. I’ve been busy. I’m working on this blog, I’m updating my resume. I’m getting audio clips together to showcase my work. I’m writing articles. I’m considering a podcast and have an appointment with someone tomorrow to see if I can get that started…so listeners….stay tuned.
But today I want to take a break. These last 9 days have been a whirlwind and I’m ready for a me day. I just put on my comfiest pair of leggings and my favorite slouchy sweatshirt. I’ve got a ton of books lined up ready to be read and that is what I will tackle today. I had a yummy bagel for breakfast and I’m enjoying my third cup of coffee. I have my gardenia candle going. I treated myself to some fresh cut flowers yesterday and I’m going to look at them all day. I’m going to surround myself with my favorite things and remind myself that this isn’t the end. There is so much more to come. But just for today…it’s all about me and what I need to cheer myself up a little bit.
But tomorrow, I’m back at it…so watch out world. Here I come!
It’s been a week of high and lows. I lost my job last week. But the outpouring of support has been amazing. This is when social media can be a great tool. I posted on my Facebook page about my job loss and within hours I had close to a hundred messages of outrage, support and concern. It sure does make a girl who is down feel a little bit better. I have also received cards, phone calls, text messages and e-mails. It’s so nice to realize how many people really have your back when you need it. The downside of social media will be that damn memory section that I used to love to scroll through but will now remind me of all the great things I used to post about my beloved job. But life will go on.
It is Cocktail Friday and full disclosure….I had cocktail Monday, Wednesday and Thursday too. Hey, give me a break. I lost my job and it took a lot of constraint to take Tuesday off! But it is the weekend and I will indulge a little when I go to see my girlfriend later this afternoon for a little girl time and more of that support I’ve been talking about.
So cheers to Cocktail Friday! Cheers to the weekend! Cheers to some warmer weather this weekend! Cheers to summer being just around the corner! Cheers to life and all the ups and downs we go through! Always look for the positive side of things. I know it’s not easy but it is possible. It really does make life a lot more enjoyable…as does a cocktail! No judgement here! Go ahead, have one, two or ten! I will be joining you!
Cheers to the freaking weekend!
#hopefulist #writenow #happyandhopeful
I lost my job on Friday. I work in the field of broadcasting and have spent the last two years co-hosting a morning show on a classic rock station. I have been in the business for about 25 years and morning radio is my jam. I have worked with some of the best in the business and learned a lot over the years about what it takes to create an entertaining show and connect with people on a personal level. To say I poured my heart and soul into this show would be an understatement. There were no secrets (okay, maybe a few) between myself and listeners of my show. I put myself and my psyche on the line everyday. Put myself in a position to be ridiculed and bashed. BUT it’s also how the people who listened to the show connected and bonded with me. I gave them my whole self and luckily many listeners loved me for it. But alas, I was let go from the station on Friday with no warning. That is how it is done in my business. It’s not the first time it’s happened to me. But it still hurts…bad.
I was away visiting family over the weekend so that was a great distraction. This morning is the first one I should have gotten up at 3:20 am and gone into work. Instead I slept until 6 which is really late for me, grabbed a snuggle with my best girl Tucker and went into the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee. It felt like a weekend which would be nice if I didn’t love my job so much. Don’t get me wrong…I looked forward to my weekends as much as the next guy but I didn’t loathe Monday’s either. I loved what I got to do everyday.
A couple of years ago this would have brought me to my knees. Don’t misunderstand…I’m devastated but the good news is I have other things in my life and that is what I will focus on now. I grabbed my coffee and hit my screened in porch and got to listen to the ducks calling to each other. I’m very lucky to live on the water of the beautiful Barnegat Bay at the Jersey Shore. I’m drinking from my favorite starfish coffee mug and things could be worse…a lot worse.
I now have to change my focus. It’s hard because the reminders of what I have lost are everywhere. But I started this writing thing about a year ago and that is where I will try and hope to turn to if I can’t find another morning co-host job (which is very hard to do without having to move and I’m not doing that. You heard me talk about my coffee with the ducks, right?) I started sending op-ed pieces to my local weekly about a year ago and lucky for me they have printed almost everything I have sent them. I also started doing some band reviews for a bi-monthly club magazine about a year ago as well.
The great thing is that I had a desire and I followed it. I decided to see where I could go with it and it has been working out pretty well. The difference to me was this time, instead of just thinking about it, I actually wrote stuff and figured out a way to get it seen. It was actually not nearly as difficult as I thought it would be. I’m not making any money on my writing…a little, but certainly not enough to replace the full time job I just lost but could there be a way to change that? I will let you know.
#hopefulist #writenow #happyandhopeful
It doesn’t last! That is why we need to do it daily. How true, right? That is why I just love my new bracelet! It’s from my intent and you can get any word you would like inscribed on your bracelet.
My goal is to write more. Write as often as I can in as many formats as possible. And I want to do it right now so I came up with this variation of the word combination to have that double meaning. Clever, right???
Other than keeping a journal, I have only been dabbling in this writing experiment for about a year. It really started when my mother passed away and as the public speaker (radio DJ) in the family I felt it was my duty to speak at the funeral. So I sat down with my brother and sister and asked them for a few good memories they had of mom. It really only took me about an hour to write. It actually took me much longer to type it up than to come up with the words. The speech was a hit! As much as you can get good feedback in those circumstances. But everyone actually clapped when I finished. I thought to myself…is that supposed to happen at a funeral? I was thrilled though that people were touched by the memories my brother and sister had of our mother. I also got a text from a friend later that evening telling me how great she thought the speech was and how I really should consider writing.
I chewed on it for a little while. Then something amazing happened. My beloved Philadelphia Eagles won the Super Bowl for the first time ever. It was euphoric. I couldn’t believe how great it felt to finally get that ultimate win. I was actually a little embarrassed by how much joy I felt. So I wrote a little article about my feelings on the subject and sent it in to my local free weekly. And guess what?? They printed it!
So I kept sending them articles and they kept printing them! Then a friend hooked me up with an editor at a club magazine that comes out monthly. I started doing band reviews. I’ve done about ten of them in the past year. Not too shabby for someone who has never done any professional writing in the past.
Now, I would like to focus on it even more. Maybe something will come of it and maybe it won’t. But I’m ready to give it my all and my intent bracelet will help me do that. You should pick your word and get one too! I love it!
#hopfulist #writenow #happyandhopeful
I got the idea for this post after dreaming about my breakfast of cantaloupe. Yes, you read that right. I usually only buy the sweet melon when it’s on sale and I really hate cutting it up but man, do I love the taste of it. I took the time to cut one up yesterday and brought a container of it with me to work. As I was going about my morning duties I thought of my sweet, delicious cantaloupe sitting in the fridge just waiting for me to devour it. Does it seem a little crazy to get this excited and happy over a little bit of fruit? Not so long ago I would have thought I was nuts too. But you know what? I have discovered it is getting excited over these little things that make life so much more joyful. (Although I’ve finished my breakfast now so I’m sad.)
So, got ahead and do it. Get excited about your life. In fact, get SUPER excited about your life. If you feel like you have nothing to get excited about all you have to do is look around and find something. I just paid homage to a cantaloupe. But I bet my description makes you feel like I have some pretty great things in my life. You would be right. But it wasn’t always that way. I have been a cynic most of my life and I would have laughed at the person posting this just a few years ago. Now, though I realize they had a secret I couldn’t grasp. If I can get this excited over fruit think about how exciting other things are in my life.
The journey from being a cynic to becoming ridiculously excited about things like hot coffee first thing in the morning and seeing the sun light up the sky has been long and took a lot of practice but it’s working. There really are all kinds of things to get super excited about. I love where I live and although I don’t have the most beautiful house I love that it’s mine and my husbands. I focus on what I love. We have this great porch that my husband strung up little lights around. I just love sitting out there! I’m pretty happy with the way the house is decorated and I love how cozy it all seems while still looking nice.
I love my job. I shout it out all the time. I do have issues with co-workers that I find challenging on a daily basis. It can really make it difficult to have great days at work but I try to focus on the positive instead of the negative. AHA…and there it is! One of the biggest secrets unveiled. That is another thing I have learned to do over the years. Focus on what you have instead of what you don’t. It makes life so much more enjoyable to think you have things you love in your life than to concentrate on what is missing that you “think” will make you happy. In actuality if you can’t appreciate what you have now getting that huge thing you long for probably won’t make you happy either. Because then there will something else you need to acquire to attain said happiness.
But back to work. I truly love my job and truly detest some of the BS I have to put up with at work. But I always focus on how much I love my position overall and make sure to give it my all. If you don’t love your job try to find a part of it that you like. If you can’t even do that (then you aren’t really trying) concentrate on the money it brings in to allow you to do things that you DO love.
What are you waiting for??? Get excited about all parts of your life and do it now!
#hopefulist #writenow #happyandhopeful
I am an avid book reader. I read voraciously. It is very rare when I am not in the middle of book. I love the look of books, the smell and the way the page feels while I’m turning it. I love having them stacked up in my book case as well. I only really keep the hardcover editions and I usually take the jacket off so they look nice. With all that said, I have switched to mainly a kindle reader. The fact that it lights up and you don’t need to find a lamp makes it so much easier for me personally. And now, I’ve gotten used to the compactness of it. It’s very easy to tuck into my bag and take with me anywhere I go.
Books are so amazing in the way they take you into completely different worlds. I don’t travel nearly as much as I want to but I feel like I still observe other cultures from all the different genres of books I read. I read anything from contemporary fiction to thrillers, classics and historical fiction as well as memoirs and self help books.
Since I have such a love for books I also have a love for my local library. I don’t know why it took me so long to come around to borrowing books but it has saved me so much money. If there is a book that I really like I will then purchase it so I can have a copy on my shelf and even loan out to friends. I recently saw a book I loved at Bj’s on sale for the hardcover edition at $6.99. I grabbed it and told my husband two of my books clubs had read this book. He asked with some surprise in his voice, “You already read it?” Yes, I answered. That is how I know I like it enough to buy it! BTW…you can even check out e-books from several apps available from your local library. Try it…it’s a great way to save money.
The written word is extremely powerful. I remember clearly the first book that actually changed a long held belief I had. It was “The DaVinci Code” by Dan Brown. What I thought was so fascinating was how they challenged some long held religious beliefs. As embarrassed as I am to say, it never occurred to me to believe anything other than what I was taught. This book changed that for me.
And to me, here is the greatest things about books. They wait for you. Unlike other mediums…the story will not go on until you pick that book back up. I also like that I have a picture in my head of the characters without really knowing it. I only realize it when it’s turned into a movie and I see the protagonist and think…that is not how I pictured her at all!
Reading can be time consuming but it’s so worth it to learn about things you may never get to experience in real life. But it’s okay if you don’t have a lot of time because as I mentioned, it can will wait for you to have the time. I have a problem waiting though which is why I go through so many books. I just get caught up in the story and can’t wait to see how it ends. This is why I am in three book clubs. Yes, three. A lot of the books overlap and it really is interesting to hear everyone’s take on it. Books can be perceived just like art. We take away from it what we put into it.
My wish for you is to find a book you love so much you can’t put it down. Even better, find a book that you want to read over again! Happy Reading!
The late, great Nora Ephron who was a journalist, writer and filmmaker was once quoted as saying, “Oh, how I regret not having worn a bikini for the entire year I was twenty-six. If anyone young is reading this, go, right this minute, put on a bikini and don’t take it off until you’re thirty-four.” My reaction the first time I saw this quote was, RIGHT???
We can all relate to looking at old photo’s of ourselves and thinking at the time how fat we thought we were when in reality, we all are usually wish we were “as fat” as we thought we were then. I guess it’s something that comes with age? Or something that comes with age AND extra pounds? I’m not sure. But yes, I wish I was as fat as I thought I was in my twenties.
I’m always trying to lose just a little bit of weight. I’ve gone up and down over the years and I’m about 10 pounds more than I’d like to be but it could be worse. I’m also much older than a 20 year old (29 years older!) and things aren’t as tight and fresh as they once were regardless of how much I weigh. I was very disappointed to find out that in spite of my very small bosom….they still found a way to start sagging. There goes the upside to being small chested I counted on all these years!
Anyway, I digress as usual. I’m not happy with my body right now but I’m never going to look like a 20 year old unless I spend all my days in the gym and I’m not willing to do that. So, this quote resonates even more. If you are young and you know you are not technically overweight (which I always knew but still felt I was fat for some reason) get that bikini on now and show off that body! Because I’m pretty sure I will never sport one of those again. I am the queen of the tank-ini and I’m okay with that. I used to love wearing my bikini top with a pair of denim shorts. I don’t imagine that will be a staple in my wardrobe anymore because no one wants to see that including me! In reality though, you shouldn’t worry about what other people think (I know, easier said than done) so if you want to rock that bikini…go ahead and rock it!
But a word of advice to give our daughters or anyone who may still be young….flaunt it while you got it because it will start to droop and you’ll start to see things you probably won’t want others to see. Get up that confidence and just do it! I’m glad I did it back in the day even though I felt “so fat” because I at least have pictures to look back on and wow, did I look great in my youth!
Everyone is always talking about having “moments” instead of “things” these days. I get it…we should be focusing on experiences rather than material items. There is a high value on living in the moment and I agree with that 100%. BUT I also think there is a lot to be said about having things in your life that you love.
It’s about the small things, right? Here is a picture of the key chain I got for Christmas from my husband, Joe this year. The Eagles were reigning Super Bowl champs at the time..first time ever and I was still on the high of it all (still am, really). I am very into glitz and glamour so this item seemed perfect for me to tote around everyday. It was only $6.99 and I really do smile every time I see it.
On the other hand I have some pretty expensive items that I just love and feel contribute quite a bit to my daily happiness. I splurged on a Louis Vuitton purse last summer that I had been dreaming about for years. This is a high ticket item. But I have used it every single day since the purchase and it brings me a lot of joy. I am trying to impress people with my fancy, designer bag and I think that’s okay as long as you pick and choose between your priorities. Some people prefer a high end car. I have a low end car. I’d rather have the bag. Those are my choices.
I think some other expensive purchases are worth it too. We all know how much a kitchen remodel is and although I know a great vacation would be amazing…so would coming home everyday and seeing my awesome new kitchen. I’m not discounting the value of vacations. I think they along with any type of experience are must have’s in life. I just think “things” are getting a bad wrap.
Maybe the key is to make sure you are taking a moment everyday to enjoy the thing you love in your life. That is probably something I have improved upon over the years. I used to take everything for granted but now I make sure I take a moment to enjoy the little things in life. My key chain, my bag, my favorite shower scent or just feeling the sun warm your face. Enjoy it, embrace it, be grateful for it.
If there is one catchphrase I can get behind is having an “attitude of gratitude”. Yes, it sounds silly, cliche and you may feel stupid for thinking to yourself..thank you so much for this delicious coffee. I was once a huge cynic and wouldn’t give things like this a chance and my life remained ho-hum. Now, I do feel grateful for the smallest things and you know what? It definitely has made a difference in my life. It helps to take that “thing” and turn it into a moment on a regular basis. It makes the little things more enjoyable and isn’t that what we’re all after…a little more joy in our lives?
A million dreams written by Benj Pasek and Justin Paul
I can’t tell you how in love with this song I am. It’s originally from “The Greatest Showman” and featured Hugh Jackman and Michelle Williams in the duet. Pink apparently fell in love with the movie and song so did her own version of it. I seem to have found this song a little late but better late than never.
I love all the lines to this song but I will point out the ones that have stuck with me a little more.
“We can live in a world we design.” ~We actually can. I never would have believed it but I’m pretty close to living my dream life and I made it all happen with my choices, hard work and determination. And there is so much more that can be done.
“A million dreams are keeping me awake.” ~I love this line because we usually think of dreaming while we sleep but if we dream while we are awake we have a better chance of making them come true. If you can dream it, you can do it. Anything really is possible!
“I don’t care if they call me crazy.” ~Right? How often have you really wanted to do something that someone poo pooed or made you think was ridiculous? It’s hard to remember at times but we really only need to impress ourselves. How great will it be when said idea comes to fruition and you can shove it in that person’s face?
“However big, however small.” “You may be right, you may be wrong but say you’ll bring me along to a world I close my eyes to see.” ~Who cares if you turn out to be right or wrong…Just do it! Our biggest regrets are often the things we never tried to do. If you fall flat on your face…who cares? You tried. I also love how you can imagine a world when you close your eyes instead of seeing the world with your eyes open.
“A million dreams for the world we’re gonna make.” ~Yes, we can create our own world and design it exactly how we want it to be. It’s not easy and it takes time and perseverance but great things rarely come from sitting on the couch watching t-v.
Listening to these words make me want to do something more. I want to communicate more with the world. I want to do it through writing and social media as well as an eventual book. These are my first steps. I hope you will come along for my ride! #hopefulist